God, guide me. I'm looking for something I don't know if I need to look for it or not I wonder how I will feel if I experience this To fill in the questions that have been hanging for a long time Making the decision to visit is not easy, even though it often comes to mind There are many scenarios, fears and doubts that surrounds me Am I afraid to move because I haven't met him? Is the void that I have worth filling. I do it quietly, unplanned and alone Sitting alone in the vehicle, please dont see me right now, in this situation. I dont want to caught up by people in this state, caught up in dreams, tears and fantasies Vogue goals, reaching out someone I cant see who can't be found. He's dead before explaining sin and stuff to me Drowning in sea of tears Spent my youth searching for excuses and daring to say that I exist I just run from courage not from reality I wonder Who am I Searching for meaning In the midst of noise and people God. It seems I've been bla...